Is The Struggle Always Worth It?

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I quit my job … and then I got roped back into staying. I made a timeline for quitting my job … and then the deadline passed. I have talked, thought and decided I am quitting my job more times than I can count and then proceeded to back down. I am now starting to feel like the boy who cried wolf. Will I ever just quit?

My dad said to me the first time I actually quit (before I somehow found myself staying … and still here 4 months later), that it would not always be this way; I would not always have the luxury to up and quit without any consequence or ripple effect in my life. And he is right. I am young, I do not have any debt to my name, I am not married nor do I have children and besides my rent and food bills, I do not have many expenses. My parents will always support me and I’d have a home to go back to. Not everyone can afford this luxury and I am so extremely blessed to have it.

So I ask myself, why am I still here hating my job? And I should explain, it is not the corporate job or the 8 to 5 that I hate (though I don’t know many that love it either and I never wanted a corporate job to begin with… should have chosen a different degree), it is the environment and the person I work for (which probably in an of itself can be saved for another post). It has been made almost unbearable to step into the office every day and keep any sense of sanity or happiness that I try and drum up in the morning, no matter how much I try to ignore it all or just push through.

I also think that there is a huge part of me that does not want to give up or quit, that I tell myself just push through until you have something better. Don’t just give up. That the struggle will make you better and stronger for it all in the end. And realistically, I do have something better coming my way. I have put the plan in place to pursue something I am passionate about if only I can hang on just a few more months (6 to be exact).

However, I find myself asking does there come a point in our lives where the struggle begins to outweigh the logic of staying? Do we sometimes just have to give up and throw in the towel even if that means quitting? Or is it really quitting if we know our self-worth, our limits, what we are willing to put up with and the respect we deserve when that is not being met?

I do not know what I will ultimately do or what the right decision is. And maybe that is just it. Maybe there is no right decision, maybe this is just how life is, one choice will lead down one path and the other a different one.

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12 thoughts on “Is The Struggle Always Worth It?

  1. Tara! This is literally me right me now! About 6 months ago I decided this is a miserable environment to be in. My company is stuck in the 50s, there’s terrible leadership and it’s a sinking ship. I was able to find a remote part time position in the career I want to get into. I thought I was going to reduce myself to part time but I can feel the tension creep in every
    time I sit at my desk. I’ll be gone within a week or so pursuing the freelance life! You’re not alone!

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    1. Thank you so much for the kind words and sharing! YES I am so glad to hear that you are leaving and pursuing a dream! Life is far to short to stay in places and environments that are not right for us! I recently (since writing this post) took the plunge too and decided enough was enough, the job and money were no longer worth it!

      GO YOU! I am cheering you on in this new step in your life! And I am glad to hear that I am not alone in this, and neither are you!

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  2. I’ve been there. Sometimes it’s the job, sometimes it’s the boss, sometimes it’s the people.
    I stuck at one role to the point where I was so wound up I was sleeping about two hours a night. That culminated in me saying at 3 am ‘Enough!” and getting up to write my resignation. I can say with no false pride that it was a beauty.
    I got in early, dropped it on his desk, and left as he was getting out of his car. My final memory of him is his fat stupid arse as he leant in to get his briefcase.
    Never heard what his reaction was to my letter but I am sure it was explosive.

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    1. Thank you for your support and sharing your personal experience! Yes I think we all hit our breaking point and enough is enough!

      If only you were able to find out how he reacted, or maybe not because then you can just imagine it (and sometimes that is better!)

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  3. I understand your struggle. I was in the same boat just a month ago, until I thankfully got a new job offer. Hang in there and keep looking for the next job! You deserve a better working environment. Life is too short to spend 8+ hours a day hating your job.

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    1. Thank you for your kind words.

      It is good to know that I am not alone in how I feel. Just need to keep pushing through until a new job or opportunity comes along because you are so right! Life is way too short to hate any part of it, especially one we can change!

      Oh, and also congratulations on the new job and getting out of a bad situation!

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  4. If you’re unhappy you should definitely quit. Plan out your finances and your next steps, but just thinking about quitting (and for months now), shows that it’s what you really want. I quit my job when I was having massive anxiety attacks on my days off because I was dreading going back. It’s not worth the toll on your mental health. Figure out your side hustle and follow your real dreams 😊

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  5. Forcing yourself into a toxic environment every day is soul destroying. If you need a”reason” to leave, apply for other jobs. Once you have a start date elsewhere you won’t be able to be talked down. As someone who works in HR, I’ve both seen and worked for far too many toxic bosses. Get out before it destroys you. I guarantee it won’t reflect badly on your resume.

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  6. I hope you find your answer but know that it’s not quitting if you are feeling disconnected from a basic human need like respect. You deserve the path where respect is a given in all areas of your life.

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